I do not think I am afraid to die. I have tried to do my best with what has been given to me, and whatever God's judgment of my life may be, I am certain it will be no more and no less than I deserve. Although I hope He judges me kindly, and even if He does not, I hope some humble deed of mine might meet His approval, just so I could know that at least one thing I did in life was thought highly of by My Lord.

Of course, I do not know if in fact I am not afraid to die. Maybe you can't know until it happens. Certainly you cannot know very much until it draws near.

But alhamdulillah. I have been given so much in this world through no doing or merit of my own. I pray that I go to paradise, of course. But even if I do not. How can I begrudge God for taking back my life when it was always His to begin with.